…It’s been almost two months since I said goodbye to my last job in Bavaria, Germany, days that I spent in the biggest turmoil of my life. I hated my job and the life out there, in the center of the land of the slaves. I said to myself, I will tolerate this no more. If I wanted to be a slave, I could just stayed in my own country Croatia.
Then, when I was resting in my last apartment in Unterschleißheim, I asked myself a million questions, what to do know, where to go. I mean, I’m 38 years old and the possibilities and chances for me to finally live the life that I want are limited. At the beginning of this month, on the 2nd July, I went on my walking adventure, but after only 5 hours and 17 km, I have had enough. My rucksack was just to heavy, my shoes very bad, my shoulders and neck were in bad shape, and I got a big blister on my right leg. I had to abandon the trip and go back. Then, after another week, I decided to go to this Sweden, as I wanted to go a long time ago (it was one of my biggest dreams since my student days), so I bought a plane ticket from Munich via Brussels to Stockholm. This week, at Wednesday, I landed in Stockholm, at Bromma Airport. This was the first time I was flying in the airplane, so it was a very strange experience.


The first two-three days I was overwhelmed with everything, the city and it’s islands, new culture, new language, different people, strange weather, different public transportation system etc. But I was pretty unsatisfied with the fact that most toilettes are not free, and even more than that, there is no free water in the parks and similar places in the city.





But yesterday evening, while walking through some smaller islands, I came to the final conclusion that I don’t belong here, like I don’t belong anywhere else (I’m one of those men that are living like the lonely wolves, not belonging anywhere).
The thing is that I want my life to be fulfilled, to make my life a big adventure, I want to explore new places, learn new things. And I want to meet new people. Also, I would be the most happy man in the world if I could finally find the girl of my dreams, girl that is just like me, adventurous, fun loving, intelligent, seeking for new knowledge and a big nature lover. But, unfortunatelly, I can not find that girl. If she is somewhere out there, she must be hiding from me, and she don’t want to be found.

Anyway, after long inner conversation, I said to myself that tommorow I will leave Stockholm for good (for me, this city is no better than Munich), again take my rucksack and just walk in the southern direction, to central and western Europe. And to avoid the same problems with rucksack and shoes while walking, I will remove more things from the rucksack ( most things I don’t really need), as well as my shoes. If I want to be the real spiritual adventurer and seeker for spiritual enlightenment, I have to strip myself from everything. I will remove my shoes and walk barefooted. This goes for most of the money that I still have. Now I know that I don’t need that as much as I thought before. So most of the money I will donate along my way to the ones that will need it the most (yesterday, I already gave 25 Euros to one poor homeless lady that was sleeping by the shore of one small island; she was very intelligent and grateful for my small donation).
I am obviously a type of person that hates big cities, and adore wild nature. So, if I have to die on this adventure, it is better to be somewhere in the wild. As far as for visiting Stockholm and Sweden, I saw it, I was not satisfied, and now I will go. I don’t plan to stay on some particular place. I’m not even sure where will I go from here, even do I will try to go southwards, to Denmark and north Germany, then try to go west to Portugal. Now, I know that I am no longer a typical walking adventurer, but a spiritual one.
Wish me best!
I hope you will have a chance to read my next post, if I will still be alive…
hey christius, you should call yourself francis, ’cause you are becoming one of the little friars 🙂 (reffering on giving away material things)
wishing you all the best!
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Maybe I should 😀 I was already thinking about the St Franciscus and how he walk barefooted and talk with the animals…
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…and he had st. clare, to walk with him 😊
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Yes he had. And I have nobody, so I talk to myself. What a parody of life that is…
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i don’t think its a parody. its how you make it… something you give, and some you’ll get 🙂
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Most of my life I’m giving everything, my money, my time, my efforts, my blood and sweat… but I get nothing in return, only pain and regret. The older I become, the more hatred I feel against other people and the society in general.
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you are looking for the divine in material world. you are giving material and expecting material in return. better be like everyone else and keep everything that you gather. it ll save you some time at least 😊
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I dont care any more for the material world. I only want two things that we all seek, true happiness and satisfaction. And I want at least one wish to come true before I die, to meet a woman of my dreams, to have at least some happiness before I go…
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If I was born alone, and lived my whole life as a lonely wolf, at least I want somebody to be with me before I die. I dont want to die alone, even do “each man faces death by himself” (quote from the movie Johnny Got His Gun)…
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I hope you find what you are seeking…be well…
🙂
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Yes, I also hope. Even do that hope becomes smaller every new day…
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Ahhhh….sigh. I’m looking forward to your new adventures. And I’ll keep hoping…
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Then you keep that hope instead of me, I already lost it. Btw, I’m writing this while sitting and eating in McDonalds by famous sports and ice hockey Eriksson Globen Arena in south Stockholm (Södermalm)…
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How about I hold onto it for you—just in case you may need it…😊
We have a friend in Stockholm—Charlotte http://www.ashtangayoga.nu/instrukt%C3%B6rer.html. A truly lovely soul with much wisdom to share. Someone we met years ago in India on our spiritual journey…
How is the food at McD’s? You are the 2nd person today to mention McDonald’s while traveling. 🙂
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Ok. I ate chicken mcnuggets with pommes and cola. Payed 7 euros. Unfortunatelly, I will have no time to meet your friend Charlotte, even if she wanted to meet me… Yes, you hold it if that will make you feel better…
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No worries. I’ve enjoyed your writings—look forward to what your adventures bring. Live another day…
And yes, I will hold hope safely here. “pommes and cola” has a nice ring to it 🙂
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Thanks! 😀 And I hope I will find what Im looking for on this big journey, in this world or another…
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Yes! It’s exciting! Be well and travel safely. And pictures from McD’s! “pommes and colas!” Cheers. 🙏🏻
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I dont take pictures from McD…
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No worries…
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Dont worry, be happy, …says the old song…
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I thought it was row row row your boat…
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This is also good 😉
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Haha! Now I am smiling. Thanks for that, Ianus Christius. (a good sounding name). Be well on your journey 🙏🏻🙉🙈🐵🌦🌈🦖. Do you believe in guardian angles?
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Maybe…
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Well then, may you be well guarded and protected on your journey of discovery…
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😀
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Wishing you the best on your journey where ever it takes you. I’m sure your she spirit will find you in the end. Will be looking forward to your future post.
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Thanks! ☺
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You are a fine young man Ianus……i hope for your safety and well being. XOXOX
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Thanks 😊
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Life is Adventure, and you’re living a great one. Some blessings are hidden, but you already know that. Be safe, and hope to hear (read) something new soon.
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I hope I will. Thanks, Duška! 😊😘
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You have a wonderful blog here Ianus….you are a very good writer, although i haven’t read all of your work here, what little i have read i enjoy very much & it is heartfelt. It’s good material for a book !!! Have you thought about writing a book ?
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Yes, I thought about it. Maybe I will leave this for the future…
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You are a lone wolf because you are not like ordinary people….you feel things deeply and think deeply …you are also a very handsome man and will find your lover……..sending peace & love to you !
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From your mouth to God’s ears! Thanks for the positive words of wisdom… ☺
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I think your travelling will get better once you get out of the cities and maybe explore countryside and coastlines and small towns and villages at a slower pace. 🙂
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I think that also. How goes your preparations for the biggest adventure of your life?
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Well I have been cycling a lot and swimming in the wild open sea. Today I am stuck indoors and it’s cloudy outside. I’m going to travel in the future.
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So, you’re building your muscles and strenght. Nice job! Oh, how I wish I could be now by your side and swimm with you… 😊😘
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Ha ha. You dont even know me lol. Apart from my blogging hee hee. But cool. Honestly nothing beats swimming in the ocean to feel good! It’s invigorating. The seas not that warm here but once I get over the cold I love it. I swim in beaches away from crowds so its more tranquil.
Im not so much building strength as just keeping active getting toned and feeling the wind in my hair. I cycle on river paths and cycle lanes and go through forestry bits sometimes and then find a deserted bit of beach when I want. It’s not like super warm here and it’s usually cloudy and grey ha ha. On the rare occasion that the sun shines I embrace it to the max!
I will be writing and sharing photos about some of the places I go. Recently I went to a beautiful forest park with beautiful beach. My kind of place.
Nature is the Healer. Away from cities, traffic, noise, crowds. You can find bits of Nature and maybe a river or ocean near various cities. You’re lucky you have the open road ahead of you. You can do lots of swimming and hiking maybe even sleep in a hammock under the stars. Portugal sounds good. I’ve never been there. I bet it will be lovely and hot and sunny and dreamy. Nothing like a bit of Sunshine to lift the Spirits.
Good Luck on your adventure wherever it takes you. 🙂
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Thanks! With the description of yourself and the things that you like to do, I would fall in love with you instantly! You are a type of girl that I want to be right by my side… ☺😍
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Ha ha. Well thanks for the compliment fellow blogger! I am glad you posted about your travels and are still alive! Will be interesting to see where you go next. By the way I am now Supernatural Hippie. 🙂 My new domain name.
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You’re welcome! I didn’t met you personaly (at least not yet), but I already like you and love you very much, as a friend blogger and as a beautifull and intelligent woman that you surelly are. Yes, I have seen the change of your new web address and name. It suits you well. I send you thousand kisses to Ireland… ☺😍😘😘😘
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Awww Thanks. You too are intelligent. You just seek Spiritual Enlightenment and are a non conformist. Happy Travels. 🙂
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Thank you again! I hope we will meet again once in our life time, face to face. Have a nice time, you beautiful hippie princess 😉 💗
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Sounds interesting….it’s really hard to listen inner voice these day , u finally did at ur 37 congratulations!!!! forward the adventure …. there is lot more interesting and wild things are waiting on way to happen for you …good luck …visit Nepal for more wild and peaceful journey ☮️
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I’m no longer on this crazy journey, I came back to Stockholm and live here as a homeless bum…
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Thankyou Ianus. Having had my journey as an inner one, I am interested in how others might live that in an outward way. A search for a truth to live by, guided by intuition, by way of heartfelt connections with that which we think we are not? A woman arrived very unexpectedly for me and has been perfect for me for 28years and onwards. Disorientation, loneliness, occasional darkness may be, and wonder too? I wish you well Ianus. Where you go and whom you meet I suspect will bring what you need to encounter to grow, and she will arrive at the right time.
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I just hope I will find the real reason why I am alive, before I vanish from this planet…
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Best Wishes, and Good Luck.
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10ks! 2U2! 🙂
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